Tea for Two: A 30 Day Devotional is now available for purchase! Just click the shop link or purchase your copy at Amazon today!
Tea for Two: A 30 Day Devotional is now available for purchase! Just click the shop link or purchase your copy at Amazon today!
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Last Saturday I returned from my very first mission trip. To say that this trip was a life changing experience would be an understatement. From everything that happened in my life leading up to this trip to the trip itself as well as after returning from the trip, it has all left me so in awe of my Abba Father.
For the longest God has pressed upon me to go on a mission trip. Every year I would sign up to attend an information session for the mission trips and even once I paid my registration fee, but I never fully committed. Last year I decided to truly commit. I knew that I had to go on a mission trip. I was honestly not up for discussion. I prayed about which trip I should go on and the Lord led me to go on the Belize mission trip. I paid my registration fee and attended the first meeting. I was so hyped after the first meeting. I made a godly connection with someone who is know one of my close friends. I was so excited for this mission trip. During the first meeting, they told us that we would be attacked by the enemy like crazy. I expected it, but I think deep down I didn’t take it seriously…
After that first meeting, the enemy began to attack me like crazy. Many of my friendships and family relationships began to fall apart. I mean people were doing a complete 360 on me out of nowhere. My finances and my health were being attacked. I was struggling to raise the money for my trip. My mind was being attacked. I was under so much stress because I was commuting to a job that was over an hour from my home without traffic, but with traffic it would take me anywhere from an hour and a half to three hours to get to and from work. On top of that, some of my co-workers were giving me a hard time at work, attacking me for no reason. Everything around me was literally falling apart. I seriously was in a Job season. There were so many times I thought about pulling out of this mission trip, but I didn’t. I knew that was what the enemy wanted me to do.
In the beginning, I was mad at God. I told Him, “Why are you letting the enemy attack me like this when I’m preparing to do something for You? I’m going out into the mission field to share the Gospel and to bring You glory, but You don’t even have my back!”
Yes, I have my moments when I get real with my Abba Father and tell Him exactly what’s on my heart. During this time He began to show me that He was using these trials to prepare me for my mission trip and for my future. Once I understood what God was doing, I embraced the trials. I made it my goal to not let these challenging situations steal my joy and peace or cause me to react. I learned to rest in God and trust Him to work things out.
It wasn’t until a month before my mission trip that God began to turn my situation around. Little by little people began to donate. I had a few unexpected donor’s who paid not only for the remainder of my mission trip, but also gave me money to buy what I needed for my trip and spending money. However, right after that victory, the enemy attacked me physically. I ended up missing about two weeks of work due to having a fever of 100.4 that spiked to 105 and a stiff neck. I went to Urgent Care, ER, and my doctor and none of them could tell me what was wrong with me or what was causing the fever and the pain. I prayed and asked God to keep me despite all that was happening and to show me what to do. I sang worship songs and prayed like crazy during this time. He showed me what to do and healed me. During this time off, He led me to apply for a preschool director position. I honestly didn’t think I would get an interview, but I went for it anyway. The next day I got a call for an interview. I was so scared and nervous because I honestly didn’t know what to expect. I also was concerned that if I miraculously got the job, would they be willing to give me the time off for my mission trip. I prayed and told my Abba that if this was the job that He had for me, He would work it all out. I went on the interview and it was the most laid back interview. I mean it was like I was just talking to one of my peers about child development. On top of that, the woman who interviewed me had researched me and she knew all about my mission trip and she saw my YouTube videos. She really liked me, but had more interviews to conduct. Well two days later she called me and offered me the position and was willing to allow me to start after I returned from my mission trip! You know that was God!
Not only did God bless me with a job that is 15 minutes from my house, He gave me my dream job where I will be able to do some incredible things for His glory. I’m still in awe of what He did. He truly came through for me. After all the stressing and crying because of the long commute I was making, He turned my situation around instantly!
To read about all that God did during my mission trip to Belize, go to Part 2 of Mission Trip to Belize.
This trip seriously snuck up on me. I felt so unprepared. I started packing my bag a week before we were to leave for the trip and ended up not completely packing until the night before we left. When the day finally arrived for us to leave for Belize, I was a mixture of emotions. I went from excitement to fear to curiosity to anxiety. During the drive to the airport, I started wondering if I was even supposed to be on that trip…wondering if I had made a mistake. But it was too late to change my mind lol.
When we touched down in Belize, we immediately got to work. Our first project was to a couple of bathrooms and a patio area at a school. We also had the opportunity to play with some of the kids that went to the school and pass out supplies. Some of the other projects we completed were building a fence around a school and a playground to make it secure for the children, painted a church both inside and out, went out into the community to pray with people and invite them to an outreach we had in order to share the Gospel and pass out more supplies.
Although we were able to be a blessing to the people of Belize, they were even a greater blessing to us. They showered us with so much love and welcomed us with open arms. They taught us how to be content and joyful with what we have. They taught us how to appreciate each moment in life. While we were at one of the schools putting up a fence, I helped pass out candy to the children. We gave each child one starburst. What got me was how each child was so grateful for that 1 starburst. They didn’t complain. They were truly thankful for that. Honestly, that convicted. How dare I ever complain about anything? How dare I ever be ungrateful? It really made me start thinking before I twisted up my lips to complain about anything.
Of course the enemy attacked us while on this trip, but God intervened. Our first night there, one of my roommates found a scorpion on her bed. Thank God she saw it before she went to bed and we were able to get it out of the room. A couple of days later we went back to where we built a fence around a playground in order to take a group picture in front of the completed project. While we were there, one of the local kids had a metal goal post fell on his head causing a deep gash. Thank God we were there and we had a few people on our trip who work in the medical field. That same night when we got back to our dorm, there was a fire literally a few feet from the room I was in. Unlike in the US where we’re able to call 911 in order to have firefighters deal with a fire, we had to handle it ourselves. We as a group along with those who were hosting us worked together to put the fire out. We had people praying and singing worship songs, we had people going and getting everything from buckets to trashcans to fill with water to dump on the fire. On top of that, the water pressure was very low so it took time to fill up each bucket, but God. God allowed us to be able to put that fire out and He kept us safe while doing it.
This trip also pushed me outside my comfort zone. When most people first meet me, they think I’m quiet and for the most part I am. Well by day three of the trip, I was my regular self. I was joking around and laughing and letting my personality shine through. I also started building some strong bonds with the people on my trip. They have honestly become my extended family. I was also asked to lead the morning devotional with 3 other women. Surprisingly, I wasn’t nervous. God led me to speak on being pushed outside our comfort zones because that was what He was doing in me during this trip. I mean this trip seriously put me in situations that I would have never imagined I would be in. From taking a cold shower just about every night to doing manual labor to not knowing if I was going to wake up with a tarantula or a scorpion in my bed, this trip stretched me.
Everything I experienced on this trip has prepared me for my new job. Going to Belize has taught me to be assertive, how to lead, how to take the lead when I see a need, how to be patient with others, how to make the best of each moment and situation, and how to embrace and love who God created me to be. Honestly, if you have never been on a mission trip, go. Now. No, seriously, go on a mission trip. That trip will change you forever. You are separated from all of the distractions. You are forced out of your comfort zone, but most importantly You will hear God speaking to you loud and clear, and you will learn how to trust Him like never before.
Have you ever reached a point in your life where you felt stuck? It seemed like no matter what you did, you couldn’t move forward. You tried to go left, right, forwards, backwards, up, down, and around, and no matter what direction you went in, you ran smack dab into a wall.
What do we do when we feel stuck? How do respond? Is it something that we are doing to prevent God from moving us forward in our lives?
This has literally been the story of my life for the past few months. I have felt stuck. Any move I would make, any plan I would make…literally anything I would do would not succeed. This included trying to find a better job as well as maintain various friendships. I felt like everything around me was falling apart and no matter what I would do to try and fix it, I would fail. On top of that, I began to doubt myself. I started to question if I was in God’s will for my life. I started to be so hard on myself because I felt like such a failure since I wasn’t at a certain point in my life. I wanted so much more out of life, but I felt as if no matter what I would do to try to move me forward, I couldn’t move forward. I felt like every door I would try to go through would be slammed shut in my face.
Here was my issue: I kept trying to make my plans God’s plans. I kept trying to push my agenda on God. Although I never mentally or verbally confessed this, in my heart I believed that I knew what was best for me and that I could come up with a better plan for my life, and so I tried to pursue my plans.
Isaiah 55:8-9 9 (MSG), ‘I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work.’ God’s decree. ‘For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think.’
We can come up with these plans that we think are full proof and will take us to the next level, but God can even top that. We don’t know more than God. We can’t see the whole picture like He can. This is why we need to live out Provers 3:5-6, which says,
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
God knows what is best for us. No matter how many times we try to convince ourselves otherwise, in the end God knows what’s best and we have to trust Him. Trusting Him is so hard, especially when it looks like our situation isn’t changing in the natural. But despite what we see in the natural, we have to believe that He is working on our behalf.
When I finally realized that I was trying to control my destiny instead of relinquishing all control to God, He began to minister something powerful to me. He showed me that no matter what door I would try to go through, what plan I would try to put into action, He would not let it succeed. You see, anything we try to do apart from God or try to do in our own ability, God will not let us succeed in it because it does not give Him the glory. He told me that no matter what plan I came up with or what I tried to do on my own, I would continue to run into a wall. God even gave me a vision. He allowed me to see myself standing in the middle of a room and no matter what direction I went in, I would run into a wall. No matter how hard I tried to escape the room or what plan I tried to come up with to get out of the room, I would hit a wall.
Once God showed me that, I asked Him, ” What do you want me to do then?”. He told me He wanted me to be still and do nothing but trust Him and walk in obedience. Of course that’s not what I wanted to hear, but it was what I needed to hear. There was something that God had put on my heart to do a couple of years ago, but I didn’t complete it when He told me to. He wanted me to write a book. I started the book and made it through the majority of it, but I didn’t finish it. I got so distracted and caught up in other things that I failed to make time for it. I did what I wanted to do instead of doing what God wanted me to do.
God already has my life mapped out with incredible plans for me. Jeremiah 1:5 (NKJV) tells us “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations.” I love the Message version of this verse, which says “Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you. Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you: A prophet to the nations—that’s what I had in mind for you.” Jeremiah 1:5 is telling us that even before we were conceived, God knew His plans for our lives. He knew what He called us to do. He knew how each and every day of our lives would turn out. He knew everything about us before we were even thought of by our parents. Let that sink in! So if someone as mighty and powerful as our God, who has had our entire lives planned out even way before we were born, is asking us to trust Him and follow His will for our lives, what do we have to lose?
I want to leave you with this: If you are feeling stuck or if you are simply miserable with where you are at in life right now, do not be discouraged. God has great plans for you and He will fulfill those plans and purposes He has for you. Your main responsibility is to continue to pursue God with everything in you, walk in obedience to Him even if He is asking you to step outside your comfort zone, trust His timing, and wait on Him with an abundance of patience and joy. If you do that, the valley season you are in will fly by so smoothly. Stop worrying and fretting, and simply trust in God. And last but not least endure to the end during challenging seasons.
I’m praying for you friends! If you have any prayer requests please feel free to email me at email@example.com
Love you all!
Have you ever felt like you were on the verge of something great…on the verge of a breakthrough? Things in your life are going fairly smoothly, you are getting on your face before Jesus daily, Jesus is speaking great things in your life, and you can literally see little by little Jesus making moves and setting things up for His plans for you to come into fruition. And then all of sudden Jesus is quiet. You call on Him, but you don’t hear His voice…
This is the story of my life right now. At the start of the year, I went on a fast and I grew even closer to Jesus, went even deeper in my relationship with Him, and He started giving me a glimpse into His plans for me. He didn’t reveal everything, but what He did show me left me so in awe…left me literally speechless. I even started seeing Him, little by little, put things in motion. But these last couple of weeks, Jesus has been fairly quiet. It’s like everything is at a standstill. This caused me to become anxious. I started questioning myself, asking myself if I have done something wrong, if I have pulled away from Him without even realizing it. That wasn’t the case. Then I started asking Jesus, “What’s going in? Why have things come to a halt?”
This morning the Lord told me,
“Be still beloved. I am right here with you. Right now it seems like I’m not doing anything, but I am doing many things in the spiritual realm that you cannot see in the natural. Right now I want you to focus on resting in Me and trusting Me even when it seems like nothing is happening. The key to you successfully fulfilling My plans for your life is your trust in Me and you keeping your eyes on Me. Once you stop trusting Me or take your eyes off of Me, everything around you will begin to fall apart. You need Me every step of the away along this journey.”
Be still. Two simple words, yet they hold so much meaning. Hearing that from the Lord was hard for me to accept. I don’t want to be still. I want to start living out His plans for my life right now. I’m tired of waiting. Although I want to keep moving ahead in God’s plans for me, He tells us in His word “Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him…” (Psalm 37:7).
God doesn’t tell us to be still for no reason. He tells us to be still because He sees the whole picture while we see only a small portion of it. There are things that He has to develop in us before He fully moves us into a position to do these great things for His glory. If we run ahead without Him, it’s only going to end in disaster. King Saul is the perfect example of this. In 1 Samuel 13, King Saul was instructed to wait 7 days for Samuel to come to offer a sacrifice to God. Saul waited but started to get anxious because the men in his army started getting anxious. Instead of waiting and fixing his eyes on God, he started to look at what was going on around him. This lead him to take matters into his own hands and offer the sacrifice even though he knew it was against God’s will. As soon as he offered the sacrifice, Samuel showed up. And then in 1 Samuel 13:13-14, ‘13 “How foolish!” Samuel exclaimed. “You have not kept the command the Lord your God gave you. Had you kept it, the Lord would have established your kingdom over Israel forever. 14 But now your kingdom must end, for the Lord has sought out a man after his own heart. The Lord has already appointed him to be the leader of his people, because you have not kept the Lord’s command.”’
King Saul was destined for great things, but because he stepped out of God’s will for his life, those plans for him would never be fulfilled, and his life continued to get worse and worse. It is a challenge being patient, especially when God gives you a glimpse into all that He has in store for you. It’s even more challenging when you feel like you are so close to those plans coming to fruition, but they are not happening soon enough. Although it may not make sense as to why the fulfillment of these plans are taking so long, put your trust in God. Keep your eyes on Him and trust His perfect timing. Ultimately He knows what is best. Don’t try to take matters into your own hands because that will force you out of His will for your life. His will for your life is perfect. Do not be anxious or worry that His will for you will never manifest. Remember Numbers 23:19, “God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through?” Every promise God has ever made to you, He will fulfill it. BUT it will be in His timing.
Hey guys! God put it on my heart to share my testimony. Some things have happened in my life within the last 1-2 years that most aren’t aware of. God delivered me from some things and has been doing some great things in my life. I broke the video down into two parts or else it would’ve been way too long. I was hesitant about posting the second part because I share some personal things that I went through in 2013-2014 and made some mistakes that I’ve just now been able to forgive myself of. I was worried that those who know me and know what I stand for were going to judge me, but God asked me, “Are you doing this for man’s approval or for my glory?” Since I’m doing it for God’s glory, it honestly doesn’t matter what man thinks of me. With all that said, please keep any negative or judgmental comments to yourself. I pray that this blesses you and ministers to you. God bless!
16“Brothers,” he said, “the Scriptures had to be fulfilled concerning Judas, who guided those who arrested Jesus. This was predicted long ago by the Holy Spirit, speaking through King David. 17 Judas was one of us and shared in the ministry with us.” 18(Judas had bought a field with the money he received for his treachery. Falling headfirst there, his body split open, spilling out all his intestines.19The news of his death spread to all the people of Jerusalem, and they gave the place the Aramaic name Akeldama, which means “Field of Blood.”) 20Peter continued, “This was written in the book of Psalms, where it says, ‘Let his home become desolate, with no one living in it.’ It also says, ‘Let someone else take his position.’ 21“So now we must choose a replacement for Judas from among the men who were with us the entire time we were traveling with the Lord Jesus…”
-Acts 1: 16-21
This morning I started reading Acts 1 and verses 16-21 ministered to me. They made me think of my Pastor’s sermon yesterday. My Pastor spoke on how God invites us to be a part of His great plans, but He will not force us to accept His invitation. The choice is ours. The example my Pastor gave was when the Angel of the Lord came to Mary telling her of God’s plan to bring Jesus into the world and that He wanted to use her to bring Jesus into the world. Not to go too much into it, but basically Mary was presented with a great opportunity that would require her to make sacrifices, such as the fact that she had never been with a man and most people would not believe her story about an immaculate conception and the fact that she was engaged to Joseph (Matthew 1:18-21, Luke 1:26-38). Mary had many reasons to say no, but she didn’t. She decided to trust God even though she did not know the details of how it would all turn out.
Acts 1: 16-21 is similar to Mary’s story, but it shows what happens when we reject God opportunities. This passage discusses Judas’ story. We all know Judas as being the one who betrayed Jesus. It honestly did not have to be that way for Judas, but he made his choice to reject God’s invitation.
When reading this passage God ministered this to me:
God presents each one of us with great opportunities. In Judas’ case, it was to be one of Jesus’ disciples and to help spread the Gospel throughout the world. When God brings us these opportunities, we have a choice: to accept or reject. If we choose to accept, that means we have to do it God’s way and according to His standards. It also usually means that we are going into this with knowing very little and trusting Him because He will not reveal every detail of how it will happen or play out. We have to trust that no matter what problems may arise or what sacrifices we have to make, He will work it all out in our favor. Accepting these God opportunities leads to fulfillment and great blessings. However, if we reject these God opportunities, He will find someone else with a willing heart to replace us, which is what happened to Judas (Acts 1:21). Also, when we reject God opportunities, we are more vulnerable to becoming like the world and we essentially choose the world’s opportunities over God opportunities, which will end in disaster and feeling much regret. Once we reject those God opportunities, we cannot get those opportunities back.
This truly ministered to me because I have seen this happen in many people’s lives. They let fear of the unknown, opposition from others, or belief that what the world has to offer is greater since it does not require any sacrifice or denying of the flesh, to cause them to reject these amazing opportunities from God. They get so caught up on what’s going on in the natural that they take their eyes off of God. This is what happened to Judas. He took his eyes off of God and believed what the world had to offer was better so he rejected his God opportunity, which ended in him feeling so much regret that he took his own life and he ended up being replaced.
What I love about the story of Judas is that even though Jesus knew all along what Judas was going to do and it was even foretold that he was going to reject Jesus, Judas was still presented with this amazing God opportunity. That’s the incredible thing about God, even though He already knows whether or not we are going to accept His opportunities, He still presents them to us. He still tries to win us over. He is so patient and merciful! We even see this with Judas during the Last Supper when Jesus went around washing each of His disciples feet (John 13: 1-5). That was such a loving gesture. The washing of feet was the responsibility of a servant. The fact that someone as mighty and powerful as Jesus would do the work of a servant for Judas despite knowing that Judas was going to betray Him is incredible. That’s how loving He is! He will still present these opportunities to be a part of His great plans to those He knows will reject His plan. Let that sink in…
I say all this to make the point that we need to be like Mary instead of like Judas when God approaches us with these great opportunities to be apart of His plans. Yes, these plans will require us to make sacrifices, to deny ourselves, and will require much of us, but they are so worth it in the end. Think about Mary. Because she chose to accept God’s opportunity, we now read about her in God’s Word! She was part of the ultimate plan of bringing our Savior into the world to die for our sins and overcome death! That is amazing! You may not fully understand the opportunity when God first presents it to you, but know that it will bring Him glory and it will be a marvelous, magnificent plan that He is allowing you to be a part of. Put aside your fears and insecurities, fix your eyes on God, trust Him, and accept the opportunity when He presents it to you.